And then he was gone

Cueball went to the Rainbow Bridge today.  He had not been the same since Judy died, and to be honest I think he just missed her.    He was lonely without her and yet getting him a companion would not have been possible thanks to his dominant personality.   He had been under the weather for a couple of days but yesterday he appeared to be improving and ate heartily.  Today however I came home and found him dead on the living room floor.  It appears that he had simply gone to sleep in his favorite spot by the coffee table and passed away.

The house is strangely quiet now, the cats are acting up of course, as they always do, but there is no familiar click of Cueball’s toenails tapping about the living room as he wanders around herding them, no snoring as he sleeps, no baritone barks as someone walks in front of the yard.

There is a huge hole where he used to be.  For the first time in 20 years there is no dog in our home and I am bereft.    He was such a huge part of our life, a constant companion and protector.  On the many nights that my husband had to be away from the house I always felt safe knowing he was there, a constant guardian, a constant bodyguard.  He would love nothing more than sliding down beside me or my husband on the recliner and watching television with one of us.

I suppose if I remember anything of him I will remember that

Now of course he will be reunited with his beloved Judy and I imagine that as he barrels across the bridge to meet her the reunion will look something like this.

With Judy saying “pinned you again”.    Goodnight my precious boy, give my love to Judy, and let her know that I loved her just as much as I loved you.  I will never forget your impact on my life.   I will never forget how much you meant to me.


9 thoughts on “And then he was gone

  1. Oh, I’m so sorry. I lost my big black shaggy mutt a few weeks ago. He had been fine then went downhill very rapidly. Vet said it was an autoimmune disorder attacking his liver and almost impossible to treat, especially at his age, so I elected to put him out of his misery. Just me and the defective sheltie now. Thinking about you.


  2. I’m so very sorry. A few months ago I followed you from Balloon Juice and read a lot of your posts, especially the pet posts. He sounds like he was a wonderful dog. It’s such an empty feeling when you lose a beloved pet, but at least he’s reunited with his friend now.

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